If you suffer from anxiety Then you get exactly what it’s like. However, if you have never had anxiety than you probably just don’t know how bad it sucks and simply don’t understand.
Until I started having anxiety attacks probably 8 years ago, I have to be honest… I thought that people only said they were having anxiety because they wanted to get out of doing something and that there was no such thing.
It all started when I went to the hospital for diabetic ketoacidosis and got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. Everything was good until I went to go home. I’m a quadriplegic in a power wheelchair and I remember feeling like I had no body it was just my head floating along a top of my wheelchair. Right after that I started getting super nervous my body started to hurt and in the days that followed I started losing my appetite and having what felt like stomach cramps. It literally started diminishing my health.
I had been feeling off and extremely uncomfortable for probably a week and a half. I didn’t want to be alone, my muscle spasms were horrible, appetite sucked, my muscles hurt, I had horrible stomach cramps, and I didn’t want to do anything.
After days of suffering, my ex-wife finally said to me… I think you’re having anxiety… She suffered from anxiety attacks as well and Yes, I know you shouldn’t take any medication without your doctors approval, but, I’m not allergic to very many things, I was really really struggling, and according to my research at the time, it was the lowest dose (.25mg) of the benzodiazepine, Xanax you can get.
I was feeling so horrible! I was almost willing to do anything to stop feeling this way. We decided together that I would try and take one of her Xanax and she would keep an eye on me to make sure nothing serious happened and if it worked I would contact my mental health doctor asap. Literally within minutes I snapped out of it and instantly felt better. From that point on I knew and understood exactly what anxiety is.
8 years later I still suffer from anxiety. Unfortunately I still haven’t learned how to manage it on my own without medication. That being said though my mental health doctor is managing it pretty well now and other than a few exceptions it usually doesn’t get too bad.
Anyhow, if you’re suffering from anxiety or anything mental health related for that matter… Don’t be afraid to contact a mental health doctor. If you have to take medication and it is prescribed to you, it doesn’t mean you’re a drug addict, it doesn’t mean you’re a horrible person, you’re not a loser, and it isn’t the end of the world. Not being able to control it on your own is a hard thing to understand and sometimes medication is the only thing that can or will help.
Anyhow, this is my experience with it and I still don’t understand why I can’t control it but thanks to my doctor at least I have something to help manage it and keep it under control.
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